The Night the Sky Turned Lilac
And then the sun set.
It bit the horizon, and disappeared
into a run-on-sentence.
Sometimes, your brain won’t shut off.
The date. The time. Nope, I really
can’t remember. I could, if I tried,
piece it all back together. Diagram
that entire day when she died.
Sometimes, it just doesn’t matter.
They pulled her bones and skin
out of that burning building.
A disco. Exits locked so no one
entered without paying a cover.
A building full of brittle bones.
That night I filled the bathtub,
and sat there until the water
went icy cold. Didn’t feel it.
Didn’t feel anything for days.
I wore a wool coat to the funeral,
froze, even though it was July.
A few days prior, we had watched
fireworks over the lake. Makes it
just after the 4th of July.
I was married that same year.
I was widowed a year later.
He filled a bathtub with hot water,
and then cut both wrists open.
So, I know the year. I was 22.
Sometimes life pieces back
together without even trying.
for Wednesday Muse “Anniversary”
©️ Misky 2019
17 responses to “for Wednesday Muse”
I am so sorry for the events you have had to endure. Sometimes it’s better not to remember specifics.
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We all have history of some sort. xx
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Tears, horror and the desire to hug you, and sigh.
Thank God, you have Peder, the kids and the grands.
Love you, cuz.
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Love you, too, cuz.
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Oh Misky this is heart wrenching. It seems these kind of tragedies and losses almost leave us feeling like we are no longer who we were. My heart goes out to you, and I am so sorry for your loss. Your poem is poignant and lovely.
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Carrie, from one day to the next we are never who we once were. Constant change, we’re endlessly adaptable. Reconfigured. We are after all, made from clay. And these events happened a long time ago. They’re a very “old” part of me. x
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Well, I am crying and thinking this must have been so difficult for you to write.
wishing you peace and love
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Time lends itself to perspective, and there’s a lot of distance between then and now.
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Wrenching. Beautiful.
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This is so poignant 😦
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This is excellent!. A solid write. Well done Misky. Very moving…
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This is so chilling.. the death at the disco, the bathtub in it’s two tragic uses… really really good writing.
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Thank you. That means a lot to me.
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Heart wrenching events. I am so sorry you had to endure them.
Your are one of my favourite writers, Misky…the way your words and phrases burst onto the page without inhibition. This is such an excellent example of that. Brilliant.
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Thank you!
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You capture so well the way loss shatters us, how grief cleaves us from ourselves. We have to find a way back to warmth and connection.
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Thanks you so much. I appreciate your reading and commenting on it.
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